the last time

So that last post which was dated on Sept. 19th? Ironically,we had a major,major episode THAT night. Probably hours after I wrote that. SO I will spare everyone the details (again,not pretty). Luckily,the psychiatrist was able to get us in the next day and we started a new med. I don't even know what to say,really,except this is not the life I envisioned for myself.